Random!

I been writing a lot in my journal.. .Its been a while sense I blogged! I been investing a lot of time into this very great guy. In which I rather enjoy the conversation with . He gives me strength beyond myself. He puts a smile on my face no matter the words he speaks. I feel confused in my thoughts. I am trying not to move to fast, I want to take my time in getting to know him. But what of time, I feel as though I have known him forever! I want to know him in every way a woman can know a man. I want to look deeply in his eyes and feel the comfort of his warm embrace. Is it wrong to want to love someone. To just be near them? I don't know how long it will be before I meet him but I need it to be now. How fast can one fall in love? Can you fall so deeply and fast that it sweeps u off your feet. Well I am sure you can. But I wouldn't want to assume he feels the same way. And I am to scared to ask him such a question. What do I say, Huh I know we have only been talking for like two weeks but I think I love you, do you think you love me too? ahaha sound stupid to even say it in my mind or typing it out in this blog. I have never really been on to fall this deeply this fast and it be more than lust, because I could hold him for the rest of my life and never even try and have sex with him. Not that I don't want to make love to him. It just that's not what I really want from him. I feel so confused. I just wish there was a way of knowing how he feels with out having to look stupid and asking him. On that note I have never felt so creative before. I have all these thoughts and ideas just flowing out of my mind,  and I know its because of him its like he is my muse. AHA what of love or happiness can this be real for once in my life?