A film for thought?(kind of old tht i saved and just now posting)

I love movies very one who knows me knows this fact about me.. I always find a way to relate a movie to my life.. .Well one of my best friends gave me a movie to watch a few weeks ago called Fire Proof ... It was a good movie as far as story and the idea behind it.. that if you only see things from the others point of view you can help become or grow closer in your relationship. HOWEVER!!  this idea that God will damn you to hell if you change your mind about your marrage. How can God damn you for making a mistake, when you have tired for so long to make it work, to understand the other person, to feel their pain to love them to just be with them? I dont get that one bit. Because in my eyes people make mistakes everyday, yes when you marry someone it should be ever lasting but sometimes you dont see that mistake while your making it. I have been married twice, thus far in my life. The first time we was together for 6 years, I met him when I was 16. I was young and stupid and thought I knew all about all ahahahah was I wrong on that note! We did nothing but fight, we would yell at each other about something everyday. He did sometimes take it a little to far and do things to me that no man should do or say to a woman let alone their wife. And I ended up hurting him very bad in the end, and he left. But the door closing in my life opened up a window and when I crawled into that window I never thought I would be here standing at another cross road again. I never thought I would marry again, yet I did and I never thought I would get divorced yet again. But my point is without knowing how wrong it was to love my first husband, I would have never let him go and if he never would have left God would have never blessed with my son, and he is my world I would not trade him for anything or anyone in the world. So I am saying that everything happens for a reason and you have no way of knowing what that reason is till its in your lap so to speak. Again like I said I am standing on the edge of a cross road and I am trying to make my mind up about where or how to do this next step of my life. I have never wanted to be one of those people who gives up on something they love but I truly feel that there is something or someone out there in this messed up world that is my better half. That this person will be "the one" I just hate the fact that I must hurt another person in order to please myself. I just want love like you see in the movies .. I want to feel it so strong that you would rather die then not have that person in your life