Finding me!(again older just now posting)

I set out many years ago on a path that I thought would end with me being happy with who I am. Now I have learned that I was only faking this feeling of happiness. Now I have this strong urge to find who I am. I need so much for that feeling of true happiness. Where does one even find that? I assumed one would find it with another person, but now I see you have to find it inside yourself. I have looked deep down in my soul and now I see that I cant be happy in life till I set myself free of all the pain that I hid inside my heart and soul for so long. I really cant bare to live with that pain. I have had a little while now of knowing who I am. And I like me no better yet I love me. I am ready to love with my whole heart for once in my life. Now if I can only find someone that will let me in to give them that love I been holding back on for so long.