BULLSHIT

This last two months have been very hard on me. One day at a time I walk down this lonely street wishing and hoping for someone to take my hand and guide me down the right path, but every time I feel as though I have met that right person I ended up more lost and confused than I already was. There is so much I want to say to you yet I cant find the strength inside myself to just say it. I wish I could tell you that I still love you, I wish I could tell you how much you really do mean to me. You hurt me so bad by leaving me alone and scared in the dark. I wished for you, I hoped for you, I dreamt of you every day of my life and what I got told hold you for an hour, a day, a night. Was that really enough time for you, because it sure in the hell was not enough for me. I hear your voice and I feel this sickness in my stomach. Yet I feel the happiest I have ever been. You hold no power over me yet I give it to you freely because I have hopes that you will see just how much I miss you and need you in my life. I am tired of trying to be this person that feels more pain than pleasure .. I am tried of trying so hard to get you to understand just how I feel without sounding like a crazy woman.... hmmm that's the hardest thing I ever had to do was walk away from you but what other choice did I have?