The truth about love! (not done?)

The truth about love is... it hurts, it will make you cry whether it be good or bad. When you are in it you will feel amazing and happy, maybe even a little care free, when your not you will long for it.. you will hope for it you will search day and night trying to find it. But the thing is no matter how much love you can have for someone else if they don't love you back then all its pointless.  I have loved and lost a few times in my life but each time I feel as though I am getting closer to the kind of love that last a life time.  The kind of love that hold no ends, the kind of happiness that fairy tales are made of. Knowing that no matter where you are in the world there is someone that is thinking only of you, wishing you were next to them, to hold you close. To find a love like that its what dreams are made of. Some, only a few really get it right the first time. Most much like myself take a few extra trys to get it right. I read some where that "if you love two people pick the second one because if you ever really loved the first you wouldn't have fallen for the second in the first place" I am a strong believe in this thought, or statement if you will. However, there is one little thing that its over looking, that whether you love two or three, each time is different because its with a different person. Every time I ever thought I was "in love" it was stronger and more meaningful than the last, I find it funny because I can remember crying when my mother maded me come back home from Alabama I honestly didn't know one person could shed that many tears. I think I cried from Montgomery to Nashville before we stopped for the night and I made myself go to sleep. Ah to be in love when your a teenage girl I think its the most assuming kind of love there is because to you everything is the end of the world! That this is the boy you will love forever no matter what anyone else has to say about the matter and how dare they say "oh it will never work" because you know for a FACT that it will. So young and naive girls are, see boys I think they know that its a I love you for now kind of thing, not oh I promise to love you forever. They may say it but they are not stupid enough to believe it. As you grow however, love changes. It grows deeper and stronger and most of the time the love you felt for someone at 16 is far different than the love you feel for them at 22. After your first love the next is hard to fall into yet at the same time you fall a little deeper than before, because you are more open to it. You are older and wiser (well most people are wiser but not all) and the feelings run a little truer and in most cases last a little long. Now see me for example relations are paired in two's. Two last about 7 years, two lasted about 4 months. Does that mean that the ones that did last longer were more "special" or more "meaningful", My answer would be NO, each love was different and had its own special place in my heart. One broke my heart into a million piece that took a while to get back together, two hurt me in away that shall not be explained here in my blog, and one well he left a hole in my heart I honestly don't think will ever heal. The hole has gotten a little smaller over the years, but the littlest things seem to tare away at it pulling at its seems. And now today, my heart is open and honest and 100% pure. Its ready for the love that it longed for, for all these years. I am a little more cautious than I used to be but something about this idea of loving this boy I like, had some how thrown my caution to the wind so to speak and I don't know how to feel about it. I don't want to be hurt again, been there, done that too many times to count! But where is the joy, or the hope, the excitement, the adventure if you don't try. So I shall try not to give up on this boy, lets hope he don't give up on me. Because you never know, this time the love and be grand! It can be amazing, it can be anything we want it to be, if only open to the possibility's that lie ahead!