pondering of a rambling loon!(some a of convo I had with a dear friend the rest added later)

I was just thinking about how one can feel so close to someone that they never laid eyes on yet feel worlds apart from the very people in their life's that they see every day. Then I questioned whether it is wrong to live your life loving and longing for a day when you can find that one missing piece of the puzzle or should you give up on the idea and just go on living every day with a hole in your heart? I ask this to a friend and he/she told me I already know the answer to this question to that I replied if I knew the answer I wouldn't be ask you! I then said see the thing is that the easy answer would be to give up on it cause even if you find it how do u make it fit or make it work in the way you want ... but life is not easy at all, it wants to make things harder than need be its wants you to long and wait for something that will never come to be. So what is the rite answer, do you wait and hope and pray you don't miss out on something amazing because you was to busy looking for something else? Or do you dive in head first into every little moment that could bring you some kind of happiness. I feel lost and confused on this topic because I do both. I dive in to just about every little moment yet I keep part of me locked up tight waiting for that one special piece to feel whole. The sad thing is even when I do dive into those moments I don't really get the full effect because I'm not 100% open to it. So in a way I'm just a poser, I fake my happiness so that I don't bring  others down around me. That is till I speak with you, in those moments I smile no matter the words speak. In those moments I think of nothing but happy thoughts of getting to know you and wondering if that moment is just as joyful for you as it is for me!